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ok update on the kitten drama

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:51:27 GMT

Took Miyuki and Megan to vets.

Vet has no idea about pedigrees but thought Miyuki did not look pure persian. However there are two types himaylan and doll face and mine looks more doll faced where as my sisters is more himalayan.

Any way the good news is health of kittens is fine. I mentioned PKD she said they would show symptoms of it from the start but she didn't seem to know that much about it any way.

Flea treatment/worming treatment we have to do at home got the stuff from vets.

HOWEVER. I MENTIONED the fact the vet said she wasn't pure to the previous owner who then told me
"I am not sure what qualifications the vet has to tell you she is not pure persion?

Cant get papers for mum as she was given to us as we told you, she was no good for breding so they gave her to us and didnt give us any papers.

we are not breeders ourselves, it just happened, our girl wil be done so she cant have any more kittens, as we do not want to go through 8 weks of looking after them and having to sell them on again, it was too painfull to let them go."

So I was like wait a minute. You brought a persian cat UNSPADE then brought her home to your UNNEUTERED PERSIAN MALE. OF COURSE THIS WILL HAPPEN. Apparently he didn't know his male cat wasn't done. WHATEVER.

So basically I called him and gave him a mouthfull. I told him how he never told me they got the mother from a breeder and was unsuitable for breeding and I asked why isn't she suitable for breeding and he said "we don't know" but after research maybe it's because the mother didn't produce the right kittens and the breeder was very picky.

Either way I am angry. He seems to reackon the previous owner of the mother told them she was PKD NEG and they do have the papers for dad which state he is PKD NEG. He reackons they are certainly both pure persians.

He has had the mother 10 months or so. I said I want to contact the previous owner of the mother to get copy of the papers. He said he don't know her number now as it was all done by phone but he said she lives in Whitham. So I am going to try chase up breeders in Whitham.

He said he is on holiday now (which is true) but he will try get the details for me. He didn't seem guilty but I don't trust no one.

He said if there is anything wrong he will take her back. But I love her and she seems healthy according to the vet.

Either way I am just angry that he was this ignorant about the whole thing. I mean if the breeder of the mother cat knew there was a health problem with the mother cat and could not be bred from surely she would be spade and not sold or sold as pet only. He seems to think though it was no health problems at all and she was kept in a cage outside for breeding. So maybe they got fed up of her which is why they sold her on? Who knows... But I am going to try find out.

vivienne westwood shoes on ebay for £90

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 21:59:42 GMT

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=120396954673

selling so i can buy a size 4. stupid shoe size limbo!

for all u mac users

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 00:44:58 GMT

Is it worthwhile setting up Mail app to use your Gmail account? Does anyone do this? I really like the tagging features Gmail has but Mail doesn't seem to have that option. But also I like how convient it is to have Mail app getting my Gmail mail.

So whats the pros and cons? What do you prefer? Using Gmail from the official site? Or using Mail app for it?

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 17:13:50 GMT

Bad news for me just used ice creme bleach what I was recommended yesterday in hairways for my roots and it's burnt my scalp and created blisters the woman I just saw in sallys hair supply is shocked I was recommended it and I'm not even allowed to put toner on it incase my hair falls out!! I have a headache and feel sick and been told to put olive oil on my scalp and that it's a very bad case. I should of just stuck to my old bleach and toner not gone for this ice creme shit!! In pain and now my light pink roots probs be orange :( but health comes first. Can't believe this.

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Tue, 24 Feb 2009 16:45:43 GMT

Nan is coughing at times and making noise like she's gonna talk both her eyes are half open I keep thinking she's gona talk I feel like they shouldn't be letting her die I don't know this is so confusing

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Fri, 20 Feb 2009 13:41:36 GMT

Shes off the ventilator breathing by herself now but not opening her eyes at all not even peeping. I just think shes going to deterioate slowly great.... According to her brother doc said she won't open her eyes now cos the bleed was just too big intact it's the biggest bleed in brain he's ever seen :(

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Fri, 20 Feb 2009 03:22:14 GMT

Can't stop crying :(
I remember last year my nan reminded me of something. I always remembered it but she thought I forgot...
When I was about 5 in town with her I remember saying
"nanny. When you die, will you come back as a ghost to see me?"
I feel so fortunate in a sense to of gotten this many years with her. Brook one of my two cousins is 5. Shes so young :(

I forgot to mention, I never see my uncle his ex gf or my two cousins :( that was the first time I saw brandon since uh about 6 years ago. He's 12 now.

My uncle is still a drug dealer. This makes me sad because his kids will one day find out the truth. It also makes me sad that he doesn't seem to care about his "job" affecting his kids. Disgrace. He acts like he's such a saint.

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Thu, 19 Feb 2009 21:00:11 GMT

Been up hospital again. She has more colour and movement going on but no drastic improvements. She is warmer though.

They wanted to turn the ventilator off tomorrow morning but her son Reggie agreed with me that we should fight to have it on for another day AT LEAST.

She isn't in pain so it wouldn't hurt just for another day...

My Grandad is 80 tomorrow! He is still here thankfully despite alot of drama with him over the recent years too with his health... Unfortunately his knees are still bad despite yet another operation. Imo they need to replace his knee caps so why not do that instead of wasting hospital time doing operations which don't help him!

I don't want my Nan to die on his birthday I know that sounds selfish but it would really upset my Grandad (My Mum's Dad btw)... And unfortunately one of my Grandad's best friends died the day after he last saw him last week :( so he has that funeral to go to on Monday! Not been his week really...

He keeps acting like he's going to die soon. He keeps buying new stuff for the house... As though he's enjoying his money last minute before death if you get me... He jokes about it saying his time is up soon. I hope not...

So far all my Grandparents have had shit deaths:

My Original Grandad from my Dad's side... Dying of a heart attack when my Dad was 10 :(
Len, my Step Grandad (My Mum's Mum's Bloke) dying a slow, terrible, painful death of a stroke.
John, my Step Grandad (My Dad's Mum's Bloke) dying a slow, terrible, painful death of lung cancer from asbestos work years ago.

I am thankful to still have my Nan Beryel (Mum's Mum) and my Grandad (Mum's Dad) but I didn't expect my Nan Viv to go just yet...

Well actually, I thought she would die soon after her husband went but she held on... However she never stops speaking about him and it is VERY depressing. She misses him like mad and of course you would when you did have your soul mate around you 24/7 then he goes... And you are all alone...

I'm just sad my Nan Viv never lived life to the full... Her upbringing was sad the sadest part:
Her Mum going to Aussie when she was only like 16 or so leaving 2 of her children behind in England... My Nan NEVER saw her EVER again and she died like 2 years ago :( how gutting is that!? The rest of her brothers and sisters are in Aussie too and she never saw them again... That is just dire.

My Nan is the kind who worries about everything (kinda like me though not as extreme as her!) she's very set in her ways but people are... But she was so safety aware and too over the top panic about everything. NEVER relaxed. EVER. I wish she did... Just for once...

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 14:17:58 GMT

The bleed is too big. Shes off sedation and not made progress or opened her eyes. She has 24 hours and if no progress they will turn the ventilator off tomorrow and let her go peacefully they cant operate. Its too risky and its too deep in the brain.
I just wish she would wake up even for 5 minutes :(
The bleed would of been big no matter what time we caught her :(
This can happen to anyone :( how gutting

Mind you i wouldnt want her to die in pain or be a vegetable like my step grandad :( my step grandad dragged out for months but at least he could see us my nan never will again :(

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Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:43:16 GMT

So I'm home for now...

It doesn't look good. She squeezed my hand, I spoke to her, I kissed her cheek and I saw her open her eyes slightly.

She keeps moving her right hand/leg and I instantly thought left side is paralysed nurse said it's weak but I know it's not.

My step grandad died a slow and painful death from stroke and it was the most horrifying experience ever. he took around 4 months to die and we would go see him like a vegetable before he finally went.

The stroke is caused by a bleed on the brain a big one at that.

Here's the story in bullet points:

Last night my Dad took her to my Grandads (my mums dads) and she wanted to go after a short time of being there. So he took her home.
At her house, she ate a sandwich then felt sick and was sick.
My Dad left her thinking it was just a sickness bug.
10am my Dad goes to her flat. She isn't answering the door but he thinks she's just out...
During the day my Dad tried to call her and so did his brother... No answer... Engaged, they thought she was on the phone...
Again more trying to call no answer...
In the evening my Dad's brother goes there with my cousin Brandon, no answer he goes round front curtains are drawn, police come round to bash an entrance in (she never lets anyone have keys to her flat :(
She is found lying on the floor, sick around her, the phone off the hook on the arm of the sofa... Her face very swollen on the left.

Apparently she could of had the stroke first then fell to the ground. We can't be sure what time the stroke happened but my dad's brother keeps thinking it was at night (mainly cos the curtains were still drawn and the tv was on) and then she layed there unconcious all that time :( kinda gutting...

The doctor said she could of had the stroke this evening then fallen. NOBODY WILL KNOW :( only she will! I wish she would wake up even for 5 minutes just to tell us what happened so it can put our minds at rest if she dies :(

They don't know what will happen.. They can't operate on her brain to stop the bleeding because it's too risky and could kill her :( it's too in the brain :(

She is now in intensive care.

I cannot believe it.

I am so shocked but I am being so brave, I had a cry and I'm aware of what will happen if she dies but also have some positive energy too...

I spoke to her alot and she squeezed my hand, she can hear me :) i am glad. I am glad i was with her to talk to her and show her that i was there with her during the critical moments... I just hope she comes out of this. but even if she does she will maybe be a vegetable which is also bad i think..... it's a catch 22....

as with all strokes nobody knows how the person will be, everyone reacts different...

So yea guys wish me luck.

This is also bad because my Dad relies on her too much :( and my dad is alone... and he is not right in the head and does not show emotion so we are worried he might kill himself if my nan goes :(

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 22:06:35 GMT

Shes had the worst type of stroke.
Neurologists are comming to find out more.
I dont think she will make it. Ferl gutted cos she called me 3 or so weeks ago leaving a voicemail to call her and i didnt.
She did have a fall about a month ago which maybe triggered it!
She wasnt answering her phone and my dad went there at 10am and she wasnt answering the door so my dad thought she was out!!!
Then my dads brother went there and no answer noticed curtains shut so got police to break in. And she had fallen and sick shes still not concious.
My dad said she was sick last nite i wish he stayed with her.

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Wed, 18 Feb 2009 21:08:59 GMT

Nan viv my dads mum has had a stroke and fall and im in hosp seen her shes smashed up not awake snd i camt stop crying

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Guitar Hero 3 plus wireless guitar for playstation 2

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 13:48:45 GMT

Hi there,
I have guitar hero 3 with wireless guitar for playstation 2 for sale.
I am in Essex but can meet you in person in Essex or London for collection.
Paypal accepted.
I have played it about 5 times but I got a wii for xmas so I brought wii version of guitar hero for it today so no longer need this one!
I have the original box, etc.

Will accept offers so PLEASEEEE make an offer :)

Photos available upon request :)

Thank you!

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Mon, 01 Dec 2008 22:00:57 GMT

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